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My bloomers
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Ya, ya, it's supposed to be San Francisco, but I borrowed a little artistic license. I'm writing this with slightly glazed over eyes. I had a surreal experience one sunny afternoon while visiting my home state. I had the privilege of spending 6 hrs. with a person whom I hadn't seen in nearly 21 years. That's a long time considering that I own underwear older than that, lol.
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| The proverbial supernova |
I'm so not sure why I've always had this connection to this dude I met back in 1990, but boy oh boy, there's definitely a spark or 2 remaining between us. Other people saw it and commented too. The server at the restaurant said the 2 of us lit up the booth we were sitting in. And later, a bartender asked us how long we'd been together. I laughed and looked at my watch and answered it had been about 5 hrs., lol. Mr. cute bartender didn't stop there. He said he'd seen lots of couples over the yrs., but when my friend and I walked in, he instantly saw an aura around us. Hell, we glowed brighter than a supernova!
I'm still under a spell that was cast that day, my mind has been going fast and furious. It wasn't even a lust thing, it's always been something more. And, I think that's what's bothering me. That damned connection thing! We had originally broken up because life got in the way, too many barriers at the time prevented us from seeing it through. Now, fate has presented it's ugly face as well as presented me with another barrier. The "slight" problem of 1,500 miles between us. Unkind? You betcha bippy!
For now, I need and want to bask in this feeling. For the first time in many years, I know that my heart still beats. It's been a long time! I had convinced myself that I never wanted to date again, or have a relationship, or to love again. I'm not dead afterall! Should I pray to the fates? Beg kismet, God, Buddha, or whoever, for another chance? I don't want this to end, it can't end! Please don't let it end............
